Concerto en Mi Minore

I'm moving in on Saturday morning.
I'm leaving tomorrow at noon.
From this point on, this journal will be nonexistant.
I will not delete it, but I will not write in it anymore.
Thank you.

True:
2. I absolutely detest all forms of rap.
3. I received an award for being the "Skippiest Player" on my soccer team in 4th grade.
4. I attended Catholic school when I was young.

False:
1. I always wanted to be an astronaut when I was younger. (veterinarian)
5. I have lived in 7 different states. (six! HA! : P)
6. I have been to church recently. (enough said)

Rules: if you're tagged you must list 6 random facts about yourself - 3 true and 3 false, so people can guess which are which. Then tag 6 people to do this meme.

1. I always wanted to be an astronaut when I was younger.
2. I absolutely detest all forms of rap.
3. I received an award for being the "Skippiest Player" on my soccer team in 4th grade.
4. I attended Catholic school when I was young.
5. I have lived in 7 different states.
6. I have been to church recently.

Interesting day. Apathetic kinda. Got rid of a lot of stuff in my room. A LOT of stuff. Came across some things I would rather not have come across. I don't know what to feel I guess. It's getting harder and harder for me to talk to people when I know I'm moving in two weeks. I'm worried that I'm going to lose touch with the people I want to keep in touch with, and the people I want to forget are going to find me (STALKERS!). Or maybe I won't be happy at college. Maybe I just won't be able to hack it. I'm nervous. Damn nervous. But I'm ready to move out of here. It's like being in limbo, and it's very confusing and hard to go through.

I don't need people to belittle my situation or tell me it's going to be fine. I just need to know that you're behind me and that you won't forget me when I move eight hours away.

I'm going to miss you all. So much. But I can't keep this journal. I may make a new one at some point, but this journal has too much associated with it. It's the old me, and I'm growing up and becoming different now. That calls for not only a fresh start, but also a new username : )

We shall see, no?

I can't wait to have an excuse to get rid of this thing...

80 posts in 5 days is a little ridiculous, don't you think? C'mon friends list! Give a girl a break! XP

@.@

Back from my cruise. It was... okay. I got a lot of reading in, let's put it that way.
Yeah.

Got really really sick the night before. Like throwing up for 2 hours fromt the lovely Italian seafood spaghetti I ate. I can officially say I will only eat shrimp if it is in sushi, and clams, mussels, and scallops are off limits until further notice.

But other than that, and some minor motion sickness, I was well for the trip, which was pretty awesome. The islands we visited were pretty cool. Mom and I went snorkeling on one, horseback riding on the second one, and shopping on the third one. ^.^

So yeah, all in all it was just nice and relaxing. And now my sheets smell good : )

I have a bunch of emails to send out now too... And some people to call. MEH. Too much to do. But I have a good book, so I will probably spend tomorrow ignoring the world : P

Leavin for mah cruise! Be back next Sunday. : )

I'll think of you all when I'm relaxing on deck, reading a book, and burning my skin : D

DUDE! I got new userpics. : P

Aaaaaaand I updated to that stupid "we put ads on your page" LJ level so that I could have 15 XDDDDD

LOVE FMAAAAAAAA.

*nothing comes out*
*tries to talk*
*same results*

...What the hell?

*whisper whisper* my voice is so gone...

But! I scheduled all my classes yesterday! And I'm sooo excited!
Except for that 3-4 pm Differential Equations class on Fridays.....
Only class I have on Fridays....

I have a feeling I'll be skippin that one a lot XP

I'm leaving to see what kind of a life I'll be living the next four years. I'm leaving to set up my damn 8 am classes (Cuz I'm sure all others will be full) and sleep on wood (aka dorm beds).

I'm leaving to start something that I will actually be pursuing in exactly one month and one day (aka move-in day).

Mixed emotions.

I'm sitting on an air bed.

Crying.

And I want to kill my family.

I hate life.

2 thunderstorms, 1 four hour nap, 14 episodes of Outlaw Star, 3 fast food meals, 4 hours of sleep, 3 pages of college nonsense, 2 deep conversations, countless zone outs, and 15 hours in a car later....

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

And btw, 2 pages of that "college nonsense" is things I have to do before Student Orientation for which I have to leave on the 18th for another long (8 hour) car ride.

Tasty.

But somehow I'm excited. I have a direction, I have something to work towards again. Was feeling lost there for a bit.

And my Allegra pills are now huge.

This has been my pointless service announcement.

T-minus approximately 240 hours.

I am damn glad I am not in Virginia. It is very relaxing to be away from people and just be surrounded by my family and doggie. I've realized quite a few things over the last week or two especially in light of tying up some loose ends for getting ready for school and all.

I've become more independent over the last year. I'm not less emo necessarily, I'm just better at dealing with it myself.

I have far less tolerance for people than I used to. This is kinda sad, because I used to pride myself on being able to deal with annoying people, but I've been pushed a lot this year especially by my family members.

I enjoy stress and hard work. And I'm so damn ready to be around people who want to pull their own weight in groups.

I'm ready to move out. Like no joke. I was scared for a while, and there's still a part of my that's scared, but I'm confident about everything that moving out entails.

I hate Burke. I hate Virginia. I think if I was going to VA Tech for 4 years, I wouldn't have made it. I'm so excited to finally be getting out of here. It would be nice to get off of the east coast, or even out of the country for a change of pace and atmosphere, but out of Virginia is enough for now.

Give me books and I'm good for weeks without human contact. In fact, I would rather enjoy being a hermit with a gigantenormous library.

I can't wait for this summer to be over. There are only two reasons I want it to last and neither of them involves family or fear of moving out.

I could care less what the hell people are thinking about me. Sure we all say that, but really I just don't care anymore. People can look at me and say "Big fat whorish failure" and I would just keep walkin. Enjoyable.

This journal is pointless. Yeah. I don't even know why I got it in the first place. So as of the end of this summer, this journal is officially dead. Never to be used again. Kthxbye. Etc.

Happy belated 4th of July.

Oh yeah and I have 32 college credits. Bite me.

I'm pregnant.
Hahaha just kidding : p

No I called for my AP scores this morning cuz I had nightmares about them all night and just HAD to know.

Spanish Lit: 3 (what a surprise hahahaha)
English Lit: 4 (w00t!)
Calculus: 5
Calculus Sub-score: 5
Computer Science A: 5
Physics B: 5

W00T!

: )

7 days till I'm 18!!!!

Oooohhh AND I got my rooming assignment! I'm in the hall I wanted! YAYYYYYYY!!!!!

Today sucked.
Got home from all-night grad at like 6ish (ALL-NIGHT GRAD ROCKED!) and went to bed with my neck feeling kinda funny.

When I woke up this morning I could barely move it. And now I have minimal function and I'm on a lot of advil. So tired and grumy and achy, I sign on to WoW because NO ONE IS HOME. When people DO get home they hassle me ENDLESSLY while I'm in the middle of something. Picked up flute at Jackie's, which was awesome. Barely missed talking to Chris not one, but twice. Didn't get to talk to Suzy basically at all. Last day on WoW for 3 weeks and I have parents hassling me over and over and over. So I get back on and Hurst posts me for a UD Strat run. Sure why not. Mom starts yelling at me even though I'm packing while playing. Yelled at some more. Lectured. Yelled at. Finished my jobs and still got yelled at for not asking for more work. Got angry. Said goodbyes to guild and signed off.

My neck hurts. I miss my boyfriend. Seeing my best friend in the next 5325070 years would be REALLY nice. I'm exhausted. FUCKING AMISH COUNTRY IS GOING TO SUCK.

Get this: usually we make the Illinois trip in one day flat. THIS year, we're stopping @ Hershey Park first. Okay, no problem. So we stay the night. Then we're visiting AMISH COUNTRY. WHAT THE FUCK IS IN AMISH COUNTRY?!?!?!?!?! THEN we're spending TWO DAYS driving.

This is SUCH a waste of my last free summer. And it makes me sad T____________T

And there's a bug on my fucking monitor.... GRRRRRRRRRRRR.

You're gone. And I miss you.

It STILL hasn't hit me.
I just put my cap/gown on and it STILL has not struck me.

OH EM GEE! I FOUND THEM I FOUND THEM I FOUND THEM!

*DANCES AROUND ROOM LIKE A MANIAC*

I FOUND MY TEXAS FRIENDS!

/HYPER

Oh yeah, and I'm graduating tomorrow : )
And I have the most wonderful boyfriend ever!
And Suzy's the greatest, cuz I'm totally already using that organizer XDXDXDXD

I'll post some pictures in a bit when I'm a lot more coherent, and a little less pessimistic (XP).

So I got all ready and everything (had to have Emily help me dress cuz of my CRAZY nails!), and then headed over the Jason's. Couldn't put on the stupid boutineer cuz of my nails (are you seeing a trend here? lol). Took pictures and then GOT IN THE LIMO ZOMG. The inside was like all shiny! And then when we pulled up to the place to eat this little kid outside was like "ZOMGAREALLYBIGCAR", it was SO amazing. Dinner was awesome. There is no other way to put it haha. Emily Watts and I shared a salad (scandalous!) and talked a lot and ordered the same meal! Then our table shared a Creme Brulee (spelling?).... Mmmmm.... Got back in the limo, made a pit stop at Michela's house (yeah, I can't spell...) and then headed over to the dance.

We were some of the first people there hahahahaha. There were like TWO people there when we got there. But that's cool, cuz we got to try the punch before they spiked it (*rolls eyes*) and we got to chat a bit before things got crazy. Then there was MUCH dancing and craziness and IRELAN WAS THERE O.O and there was even a sort of dance-off. Fun stuff! My feet started to KILL after about 2-2 and a half hours, but that's okay I guess XP.

So we got back in the limo around 12:30 (Prom ended at 1) and headed back to Jason's.
Here's where I get angry.
So the ride home was really nice because we were all just kind of quiet and happy and laying down on each other pseudo-sleeping.
Now the PLAN was to go to Jason's and Emily/Elaine would get picked up to go to the all-girl's party, Kate would go home, and Chris, Dan, and I would sleep over at Jason's.
Supposedly this was all cleared with our parents before hand.
Now we got back there and we all just kind of passed out on the couch(es). So I went into the bathroom to help Michela undo her dress and when I came back out into the kitchen Mr. Wolf was like "Yeah, Mrs. Deter is coming to pick you up at 2:30".

...What?

Supposedly AFTER my mom left (she had to leave before we got in the limo cuz she needed to take pics of Sean too) all the parents decided that we were not sleeping over at Jason's. As of right now, I have no definitive reason as to why this was decided, why it was decided without any child input, and why NO ONE tried to contact us about it beforehand. I am VERY angry, because it took A LOT of string pulling on my part to get it to happen for me in the first place, and I feel like the parents just decided this on a whim. So I went home at 2:30 being ASSURED that someone told my parents I was coming home, I went in through the garage door so as not to wake anyone up, changed, and fell asleep.

This morning my mom threw a pair of shoes into my room and gasped in surprise. She asked me why I wasn't at Jason's. She said no one had called our house (I can confirm this from called ID), and she was completely surprised that I was around.

I'm so pissed off at this. It almost ruins the rest of the night for me, which is HORRIBLE, because the rest of the night was AMAZING, I was just looking forward to sleeping over there. So yeah, I need a good way to get unangry now. : (

But the rest of the night WAS fantabulous and everyone looked gorgeous. I loved my limo and limo group and the dance was awesome.
And of course, I loved being there with Chris. : )

[EDIT]

A couple things. Suzy is ZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMG TEH AMAZINGNESS for putting everyone before her when we were getting ready : )
And I'm still kinda mad, but not so much cuz I've had time to cool off.
But I now "know" the reason it was cancelled, but it's so damn lame that I think it's a coverup for sumthin else. Whatever.
But I'm in a good mood : )

The doctor stuck me... FOUR TIMES. Two shots, one TB test, and blood drawn. :'(
My arms hurttttttttttttttt.

And I get to go back on Wednesday for more. CRYYYYYY.

But tomorrow I get my hair cut : )
And my quilt is ALMOST done!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

/tired

But the real reason for this post:

BAND CONCERT ON THURSDAY AT 7:30 IN THE LITTLE THEATRE!
Please come, we need all the support we can get, especially if we're expected to get through the drum solo in one piece... Plus Michael's solo will be AMAZING even if the rest of the band does fall apart!
Be there or be a REALLY rusty flute! XD